I just received my email from Diane that I am on Day 14 of the 21 Day Sugar Detox. Two weeks!! Quite frankly, it seems like an eternity. I feel like every single day is an experiment in patience and discipline more than any other time in my life. (Yes, even more than IM.)
So how do I feel?
I feel like there is a lightness in my stomach. I feel like the puffiness around my face and hands has slimmed out. The nausea from week 1 has completely subsided. I do notice that when I’m hungry I am “get me food right now” hungry but this is because I don’t prep in the way I should. I am sleeping hard and have had some crazy weird dreams. I have lost a little weight, mostly from inflammation I would gander. My pants are generally fitting more comfortably.
What’s on my mind?
I am mildly concerned that my constant thinking about eating is detracting from the other important things in my life. I’m also concerned of how to create a balance between what I currently see as deprivation and what is healthy. I want to be able to have chips and guacamole with my family out at dinner. (Last night, I ate the leek-poblano guac with a fork.) I want to be able to enjoy a scoop of ice cream. But I don’t want to go back to feeling like crap 24/7. I want my pants to keep fitting comfortably instead of going back to the squeeze every morning. I’m also afraid that I won’t learn balance. That I will immediately go back to my old ways and that is bad.
So what about running?
I need to run. I need people to run with and people to push me. Now that I’m on week 3, I think I am at a place nutritionally where I have the fuel to run. But I don’t have the motivation. My jammies have won over more days than I would like to admit. I miss my HoCo running pals more than I can possibly say. And, of course, my girl MM.
And finally, a shout out to my saviors…
I am so grateful for the support of my family, particularly K, who has kept me to task when I want to throw in the towel. I’m thankful for my co-workers who are also keeping me on task and asking me what day I’m on! I’m thankful to the 21DSD crew on facebook and the daily emails. Talk about a good kick in the pants. Finally, a big shout to my three go-to snacks. I’m not over indulging, but I know I couldn’t do it without these.
Justin’s Classic Almond Butter. Like a little shot of manna from heaven.
21DSD Approved Trail Mix. Extra Nuts….(amazing in Brown Cow Plain Yogurt)
Vintage plain Seltzer. (My soda stream is outta gas.) And hey, it’s Kosher! (I need a friend to explain the need for water to be Kosher….)
So 7 days to go. One week. And then comes the true test, a road trip for Easter. Can I be smart while the twizzlers at the rest stop in Delaware tempt me? Can I focus on veggies when the cheese tray calls? We will have to wait and see.
I love that you’re doing this. You sound … at peace. Even through the internet and without hearing you talk about this I sense peace. Keep it up. It’ll become a habit, and then it’ll just be what you do, and you won’t be able to delineate this from your ‘real life’. I’ll be coming to you for advice soon. I’m living on pure sugar right now and feeling awful for it. I’m not even sure of the first step at this point, but I know a major change is needed.
Love and hugs,
Casey
On Mon, Mar 18, 2013 at 9:21 AM, RunSingTeach